What does this picture mean to me? It literally tears me up when I look at the mantle. I envisioned our mantle with four stockings when we moved in, in 2010. We began trying for our second child in 2011, and at first I thought I would have a baby by Christmas. Then in became, 'Well I'll at least be pregnant by Christmas.' When Christmas Day came and I was neither pregnant nor holding a baby, I was downright sad. I felt guilty feeling sad that day, I had so much to be grateful for. It's not always so simple to control your emotions.
Christmas 2012 I was full of hope. We were finally receiving help from a fertility specialist and I felt so much better just turning ourselves over to the professionals. It also helped that they were so optimistic. I was able to relax and enjoy the day, even with our three stockings.
This Christmas, my heart is full. I look at my little S and just cry, mostly from joy. She is here and that's all I need.
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